Yesterday I felt sad for the first time in a while. I stopped being the strong one and just allowed my heart to feel the emotion roaming my heart.

To be honest, I don’t like being sad. Sadness is one of those emotions I try to quickly get past, but yesterday I acknowledged that sad space.

I had never sown tears for this particular reason, but yesterday I did and oh how I needed to release those pent up tears. After my tears hit my husband’s chest as we laid in our bed, him holding me, I was reminded that God is good even in the uncertain wait. The hardest of the wait was the two weeks my cycle was late and the anticipation of a positive test seemed soooo real. But even in that moment, God was near.

This wait is not just a womb wait, but God is doing so much in this waiting season. Though this womb is not yet filled again when I would have thought would be the perfect timing for Arrow to be a big brother, my heart is full of hope that God will indeed do only what He can do when He best sees fit according to His riches and glory. Sad at times? Yes. Yet satisfied in my savior Jesus and grateful to be pregnant with so much purpose in Christ, while parenting 6 blessings from the Lord! God You are faithful and I trust you! YOU did it before, & YOU alone can do it again ABBA! YOU are that kind of God!

Maybe you can relate to this wait in some way. Maybe you are believing God to fill your womb, heal your heart, mend your marriage, change your job, and the list goes on. All of us are in some season of a wait. I believe this is a part of every Christians walk as we learn to even wait on the return of our king Jesus!

Years ago I was studying out the definition for the word “wait” and what I found was that it meant, “to serve.” Think of a waiter at a restaurant… another title for them is a “server”. As God calls us into different waiting seasons, He is also calling us into a greater depth of serving. I pray that in this season of your waiting and mine, that we would be daughter who wait upon the Lord with joy and a heart to serve others with an outward focused heart posture. Even while still acknowledging our raw emotions and feeling our own stuff, may we not allow these emotions to consume us or isolate us from community. This is the community God will have you serve and these are those who will also serve you in your challenging wait.

Emotions are indicators that we are human and in need of God’s love over us. Feel what you are feeling and then place those raw emotions in the hands of a big God who can handle it. What you are feeling matters and God cares for you like crazy.

Praying you forward in your wait. Don’t grow weary. You will reap your harvest in due time if you do not give up (Galatians 6:9)

“Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy”. -Psalm 126:5🤍🌻

Be loved beloved.

-Amy